Thursday, September 11, 2008

I Don't Get It...

Just thinking...

There's a weird phenomena that occurs in my life.

One day, I feel like I'm staying on top of everything...or at least keeping my head above a wife, mom, pastor's wife, friend etc

And then the very next day or moment I feel like a complete and total failure at everything.

Logically this does not make sense. After all, if one day I'm a loving wife, patient & organized mother, ministry minded, available for all my friends kind of can I, the very next day, be a selfish wife, at-my-wits-end mom, spiritually drained, friend who never calls you back.

Hmmm...kinda makes me think I'm actually all those things, all the time. I'm not either/or...I'm both. I'm human.

More of Him, less of me.
SO. Much. Less. of. me.


  1. Right there with you on that one! Some days, I feel I have it all together. Others, I wonder if I have it together at all.

    I'm so thankful He loves us anyway!

  2. Somehow you manage to post exactly what I am feeling. Have you been sneakying around my house?


  3. You read my mind!!!
    I wonder if hormones have anything to do with it too? ;)

  4. That's Me! How in the world did you know.. I got to get back to that other person.. Oh yeah I am that other person,,
    Please O Lord, help me to be who you want me to be. Help me to be more like you today.....and.....
    Thanks for sharing, it really made me think....Cheryl

  5. I so feel like that all the time! One day I am totally on the ball and the next it smacks me in the face!! Ya i get it too, more of Him less of me, but it is so hard when we always want to "fix it" ourselves!

    onward and upward my friend--baby steps!

  6. I feel that way a lot too, Sarah. I don't have any kids yet, but I sometimes do feel, as I tote my Franklin Covey day planner around ;), that I have it all together. The next day I'm late for work, I don't return phone calls, and I snap at my co-workers or family. (sigh) I think for me it's my expectations of myself are so high that they don't allow for any mistakes...human mistakes. Your last few sentences are my heart's cry....MORE of Him, less of me. :)

  7. Sounds like you've managed to capture all of our thoughts very succinctly. With you (and Him, of course) all the way!

  8. I feel like that all the time!
    thanks for posting, lets me know that I am totally not crazy! and other moms struggle with this too!

  9. I love that everyone can relate to this! It makes me feel better, too. Thanks for the reminder.

  10. A lot it has to do with how you feel about what you're doing-- because logically, what you said is true-- you're not both people.

    Feeling is controlled by what you think and do, so I'd suggest that a lot of it has to do with what's happening in your life at the time, and how you're reacting to it.

    Maintaining perspective is the key-- which is the same conclusion you drew-- where we spend more time thinking about Him and less about us.

  11. hmmm, looks and sounds like we were on a very similar page today! i agree...SO much less of me dear Lord!

  12. I love you even when you don't call me.... you are too hard on yourself!
    I am amazed how you juggle so many things and keep it real!
    ummm, note: I don't seem to call you lately either... still love me? I bet you do!!!

  13. First of all, that is the most adorable pic of you- you're a doll.
    I heard a good word yesterday- that we avoid the down days or pain at all costs. But it is all so interlocked isn't it? The good days only come at the desperate day's expense- and the heart's cry for HIM!
    Have a blessed day hon!

  14. Fantastic are just plain beautiful! :)

    And that is the prayer of my heart too.

  15. Seems like we're all being reminded of this this week.

    Thanks for sharing!

  16. I'm right there with you girl.....except I think I am to a point right now that everyday I feel like I a failing.
    I know that the Lord is reminding me to be less of me -- and to allow more of Him.
    Thanks for the reminder!
    in HIM -

  17. AMEN. My posts exactly :)

    ** maybe not exactly, but close!

    Sending a smile your way!

  18. Oh girl, you're not alone. I think it's just called life.

  19. I think when we start feeling as if we 'have it all together', God has to humble us. :)

  20. i have been in one of those same seasons! i just got a critical email from a so called friend today "addressing" it. i wanted to tell her to lay off and have three kids in five years and then talk to me about not returning an email! :) thanks for letting me vent!

    glad i read this to know i'm not alone!

  21. 2 Corinthians 12:9
    But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

  22. Right there with ya', BFF. Does it help that I think you're a great mom? Probably not. Hope that God reveals what He sees when He looks at you ... Pure beauty and purpose.

  23. You are most definitely not alone! I so know how you feel.

  24. Girl, I can so relate.
    Yes, more of HIM, Stephanie

  25. I have been there and done that. Today, I think! :) I have enjoyed reading your blog. I surfed over from everyday miracles. Blessings.

  26. Sweet Sarah- Leave it to you to say exactly how we feel and in that- help us to see that we are all the same-ladies who need our Lord and need to know who is our
    When I read it I thought I am almost 50 and I feel exactly the same way. WE should never feel like we've arrived.I'm sure the key is what you said~
    MORE OF HIM and less of me.
    Be blessed and thanks for being transparent thus helping all of us.
    I love you!

  27. I'm so glad to hear that I'm not the only one. The spirit man leads one day and the flesh man leads the next. My split-spiritual-personalities are constantly fighting myselves for control of me.

  28. SO completely understand those feelings!!!!

  29. I am so encouraged that 30+ other people feel exactly the way 'we' do! Sometimes I am "on my game" and sometimes I have no idea what game I'm playin'. *sigh* So glad this isn't all about me...!


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